I Don’t Want Your Advice

I am the mother of a child with special needs, and I don’t want your advice.

There.  I said it.

I don’t want your advice.

I don’t want to hear your opinion about how I parent my child.

I don’t care about some study you read online that says that everything I’m doing is wrong.

I don’t want you to send me articles on Facebook that you skimmed over and think might be “helpful” when “dealing with” my child.

I don’t care about your snide remarks or rolled eyes when I mention that I am getting my child evaluated for another possible diagnosis.

I really, REALLY don’t want to hear about how you think that Sensory Processing Disorder or Autism or ADHD aren’t real.

I. Don’t. Want. Your. Advice.

Why, you ask?  Why wouldn’t the mother of a child with special needs want more advice, more information, more opinions?  Why wouldn’t she do everything in her power to help her child?  Why would she turn away anyone’s well-intentioned suggestions?

I’ll tell you why.

Because I’ve read it all already.  There is nothing out there that I haven’t seen, read, researched, and discussed with our doctors and therapists.  Nothing.  I’m not exaggerating.

No one does research like a parent of a child with special needs.

I have stayed up well past midnight more times than I can count, digging through every article out there, looking for new ways to connect with my child.  From health issues, to education, to social behavior, I’ve read it all.  It’s what I do.

But there is more.

I have knowledge that no one else in the world has.

I know my child.

After reading all of the information that the internet can provide (both valid and complete bullshit), I am as well-versed as a person can be in my child’s diagnoses, but more importantly, after almost 6 years of motherhood, I can safely say that I am an expert when it comes to my child.

I know what will and will not work when it comes to feeding, discipline, safety, and education.

I know that bribery will not work, because there is nothing that my child wants more than doing the thing she doesn’t want to do.

I know that time outs don’t work, but that quiet time in my lap does.

I know that I will probably have to hide veggies in sauces and dips for years to come.

I know that having an escape plan from any public situation is required because my child can only handle so much sensory input before she loses her mind.

I know that my child can not have freedom to walk next to the cart at Target because she will run the second I take my eye off of her.

I know that SPD, ASD, and ADHD are quite real, and anyone who says that they aren’t needs to do some research right after they get their head out of their ass.

I have a team of experts that help me implement the plan we have created to help my child be the very best she can be.  It’s not like I’m just making this stuff up as I go along. Between our pediatrician, specialists, occupational, speech, physical, and behavioral therapists we know that we’re on the right track.  And if something new pops up, I do my research again, and we alter our plan to take care of it.

I love my kids more than anything in the world.

Trust me to know what I’m doing.

 

Why I’m Tired

Someone asked me why I’m so tired all of the time.  At the time, I just said that I didn’t sleep well and left it at that, but the reality is that there is so much more to it.

Why am I tired?
Here’s why…

I am tired because in almost 6 years, Ellie has slept through the night maybe six times.

I am tired because Laurel is a very willful child who knows how to push every button I have.  Having the same arguments over and over again is mentally exhausting.

I am tired because in addition to her pediatrician and dentist Ellie sees seven different specialists, and it is my job to keep track of all of her appointments.

I am tired because every week Ellie has two half-hour sessions of speech therapy, two sessions of occupational therapy, a session of physical therapy, four hours with a behavioral coordinator, and fifteen hours split between two different behavioral therapists.  That’s right 21 1/2 hours of therapy.  Every week.

I am tired because I am now homeschooling Ellie, and most days she’s too tired to pay attention to half of what we do.

I am tired because Laurel wants more one-on-one time with me, so instead of relaxing on the weekend I try to squeeze in as much time with her as I can, which means that I have to cram things like cleaning in at night…the only other time I have to relax.

I am tired because keeping a house even relatively clean while having small children is one of the most futile battles a person can fight, but with therapists in our house 19 hours a week I have to do my best so they don’t call CPS on me.

I am tired because Ellie’s favorite word for three years has been NO.  She has also recently added the phrase “I can’t” to her repertoire.

I am tired because I have to feed a family of four (three of whom can’t have gluten, two of whom can’t have dairy) on a single, small income.  Not to mention pay the mortgage, the electric, and everything else.

I am tired because I have seen every episode of Sophia the First so many times that I can recite them all.  And the Lorax.  And Frozen.  And Mary freaking Poppins.

I am tired because every time we leave the house, I have to be on high alert, making sure Ellie is secure so she can’t wander off, dart into traffic, or happily go home with a stranger.

I am tired because it is my job to keep track of all of Ellie’s medications.  And Laurel’s.  And my own.

I am tired because I’m constantly watching my kids for signs of other issues.  Laurel may have ADHD.  Does Ellie just have Sensory Processing Disorder, or is she actually showing signs of Autism?  Is that eczema?  Not ringworm again!

I am tired because I don’t get enough exercise, and I don’t eat as well as I should.  How do people fit exercise into their schedules??  Also, pass the ice cream. I’m going to eat my feelings while binge watching NCIS.

I am tired because people expect me to be happy all the time, but most of the time I feel overwhelmed and lonely.  Being a mom is hard.  Being a mom of twins is harder.  Being a mom of a kid with special needs is harder still.  But people make it seem like if you admit that, you’re a bad mom.  I’m suppose to cherish every moment.  But some moments suck.  Some suck so bad that I want to hide in the laundry room and cry and never come out.

I am tired because when people ask how I’m doing, they don’t really want to know.  No one wants to hear that my day has sucked.  They have their own crap to deal with.

I am tired because I don’t see an end to being tired.  When I look ahead, I can’t be sure that I will ever get enough sleep, or be able to stop worrying.  Every stage brings new things to stress about.

I am tired because I’m a mom.

Straw

We always blame the single straw
That breaks the camel’s back.
Instead of blaming all the weight
Of the others in the sack.

This week my back broke. It must have, because while I pride myself on my ability to roll with the punches, to accept all of the little things that I can not change, here I sit, completely stressed out and overwhelmed.

What was the straw that did me in?  What, as the mother of a child with special needs, after years of tests and diagnosis and medical interventions, finally floored me?

Ellie may have had a seizure.

After finally getting better after months (yes, months) 0f illness, after getting a diagnosis of asthma, after starting three new meds to control that asthma, after learning how to use and inhaler, a spacer, and a nebulizer, after all of that, and just when we thought we were in the clear..she had a possible seizure Monday night.

We aren’t even sure that it was a seizure, but I caught it on video and the pediatrician was concerned enough that he scheduled an EEG for next week with a neurologist appointment to follow.

It was like I could feel something break inside me.

Suddenly everything has hit me so hard.  One more specialist.  One more thing to obsessively Google.  One more possible diagnosis.  One more thing to lose sleep over (because did you know that kids who have seizures in their sleep can stop breathing and die?  I didn’t, but now I do.)  One. More. Thing.

Crack.

There went my back.

With worries about seizures came a whirlwind of other thoughts that have been building up inside me ever since kindergarten started.  How we just don’t seem to have any time anymore.  Now that she’s started getting behavioral therapy we have no free evenings.  None.  Monday- physical therapy.  Tuesday- dance.  Wednesday- occupational and speech therapy.  Thursday- behavioral therapy.  Friday- Shabbat and/or more behavioral therapy.  I work every Saturday.  Sunday is the only day off we get, and we are all so tired that we rarely do anything fun.   And she still only gets half of the therapies that she should get.  We just can’t fit any more in.

I’ve gotten to the point of considering home or cyber school for Ellie, even though I love how much she loves school and all of her friends.  At least she would be able to get all of her therapies and then we could sign her and Laurel up for some of the fun activities they keep asking for, like Little League and Girl Scouts.  Because right now, they are out of the question.

 

I am so freaking tired.

No, everyone is tired.

I am drained.

I feel like I have nothing left to give.

I know that throwing in the towel isn’t an option, though, and that is part of what’s so damn depressing about it.  I have to soldier on.  I have to suck it up, buttercup, and keep on keeping on.  Because there is no other option.  My kids depend on me.  Chev depends on me.  My job depends on me.  My friends depend on me.  No matter how bad I’d like to run away, I can’t.  That’s what being an adult is, I suppose.  But damn it sucks sometimes.

There is a thing called Caretaker Burnout.  If you’ve never heard of it, you are looking right at it.  I know what it is. I know I have it.  What I don’t know is how to make it go away.  No amount of “me time” is going to fix it.  I just spend the time thinking and worrying about the same things I think and worry about the rest of the time.  Someone suggested I join a support group for parents of kids with special needs.  Like I can fit one more monthly meeting into my schedule.  I don’t know if there is a cure.  I think it just becomes part of your life.

I’ve been tired for so long that I don’t remember what it’s like to wake up refreshed and ready to start the day.  But I can still usually put on a happy face and feel pretty optimistic about our prospects as a family. Today I can’t.

Damn straw.

Advice

To the girl at the playground today,

When Laurel and I showed up at the playground this afternoon and saw fifty middle schoolers swarming the place, I had my doubts about how the day would go.  When it became obvious that someone had seriously screwed up while planning a “fun” field trip for a bunch of 12-14 year olds, I was wary.  But most of the “big kids” were just hanging out in the shady spots, talking and screwing around on their phones, so we braved it.

Things went pretty well. Laurel ignored your classmates.  Your classmates avoided us.  All was well.

Then I saw you.  Dark hair streaming out behind you as you ran like a gazelle, dodging around toddlers and jumping the balance beam like it was nothing.  I heard the other kids, chasing after you, yelling that you were going to die if you didn’t give back what you had taken.  I saw your whirl around, the sweater tied around your waist spinning behind you like a cape.  I saw the fear and the defiance in your eyes as you stood your ground, turned out your pockets to show you had nothing that belonged to anyone else, staring down the group of five or six kids who had falsely accused you.  I did not hear what they said to you, but I heard you reply, “I have a lot that I’d like to say right now, but I don’t think it would do any of us any credit.”  I saw you turn away, calm on the outside but seething on the inside.

I watched you while I kept an eye on Laurel.

I saw you climb to the highest platform and sit in a tunnel until two little boys wanted to go down the slide.  You moved aside for them before sliding down yourself.  I saw you walk toward the swings, but decide against it.  They were filled with girls from your class, but you didn’t want to be with them.  I saw you moving from place to place alone, looking busy, purposeful, unconcerned.

I saw you.

And I saw myself.

I remembered the hurt and anger and humiliation that I felt at your age.  I remembered acting like I didn’t need anyone to talk to or hang out with, even though the rest of the class had formed into groups.  I remembered feeling different, other, alien.  I remembered how much I longed for that close friendship that so many of my peers felt with each other, but that I never really felt.  I remembered feeling like an outsider, wanting to come in but not knowing how.  I remembered how lonely it was.

I saw you.

I saw myself.

Acting tough, unflinching, unflappable, untouchable.  Wishing I could connect like other people.  Wishing I could make life-long friends like my mom, like the people in stories, like the Ya-Yas or the Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants.  But I never figured it out. I always felt awkward or uncomfortable sharing myself with other people.  I still do.  I don’t have close friends.  I have a zillion great acquaintances.  Everyone likes me, and I like everyone, but I can’t connect on a deeper level with most people.  I grow bored of drama.  I stop caring about their personal problems.  I have a really hard time dealing with the details of their lives.  I don’t have the energy for many people other than my own family.  Relationships exhaust me.

Apparently this makes me an introvert.  An outgoing introvert.  Who knew there was such a thing?

My first thought was that I’d like to pull you aside and teach you two very important words.  Words that will save you a lot of heartache in the years to come, until you find your niche, your groove, your place in life.  Words that will help you keep up that wall that hides your ever-so-fragile heart.

I wanted to teach you to say, “Fuck Them.” and mean it.  Really mean it.

I wanted to make you understand that the people in middle school don’t matter.  By the time you are in college, you won’t even remember most of their names.  One day you’ll get a friend request from them and you’ll wonder who the hell they are.

I wanted to show you that these people have no real bearing on your life, so you shouldn’t let them make you feel like crap.  If they don’t like you, Fuck Them.  You don’t need them to like you, even though you think you do.  You’ll be fine on your own until you find the people you really fit in with.

I tried so hard to fit in with all the wrong people when I was young, because I hadn’t found the right ones yet.  I wanted to be cooler than I was, tougher than I was, older, badder, more mysterious.  But all I ended up doing was becoming someone I wasn’t.  I made really bad decisions.  I should have said Fuck Them, but I didn’t.

I saw you.

I saw myself.

I decided that you really didn’t need to be told how to become harder.  Your shell was pretty thick already.

I decided that what you really needed to hear was something that I wish someone had told me.

It gets better.

Whatever shit you are going through, kid, it will get better.  Just hang in there.  You only have a few more years until you can escape to college or New York or wherever your heart leads you.  Put your head down, don’t let them get to you, keep your skin thick, and laugh at their pettiness.  And when you come of age, get the hell out of here.  Don’t think you have to stay.  Don’t think the world is too big for you.  Don’t just stay here, trudging through life, waiting for it to change.

Go and find your people.

They are out there.  No matter who you are, somewhere out there are like-minded individuals who will welcome you into their clan.  Find them.  Whether they are artists or writers or scholars or musicians or architects or accountants, there is someone for everyone.  Don’t look for the people you THINK you should like.  Look for the people you FEEL are right.

It will get better.

One day you’ll realize that 12 year olds are assholes to everyone, especially to each other.  Its a really tough age, but if you do your best to ignore the haters you’ll make it through.

Until then, keep standing up to the kids who try to drag you down.  Don’t let them pull you down to their level.

Fuck Them.

It gets better.

Sincerely,
The mom who use to be you

Gone Girl

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Ellie is a runner.

Ever since she could walk, we have had to keep a very close watch on her when we are out of the house.  She doesn’t like to hold hands and will not walk nicely alongside of us like her sister does.  If allowed any bit of freedom at a store, she will quickly scoot off into another aisle, or across the store, or find a stranger’s legs to hug.  I have had to catch her on the threshold of Target, before she toddled into the busy parking lot.

Ellie has no sense of danger, physical or stranger.  Anyone who smiles at her is a friend, and she will happily climb up in their lap or follow them out of the park.  Cars, swings, strange dogs…none of them scare her.  This makes doing things like going to the playground or walking three blocks up the street nerve wracking to say the least.

To foil Ellie’s penchant for wandering, we generally keep her contained when out in public.  At stores, she sits in the cart.  At the park I wear her in my toddler Beco.  For trips to the mall I break out the stroller even though she’s getting too big for it.  She doesn’t always appreciate being strapped in, but at least we don’t have to chase her while dragging Laurel along behind us.  All in all, containment has worked for us up until now.

Last week we went to a Memorial Day picnic.  There were lots of friends and family, and the girls had a bunch of other kids to play with.  Even with the girls’ food issues (Ellie is now gluten AND dairy free), there was lots for everyone to eat.  Ellie discovered the joys of watermelon.  All in all it was a great day.

At the end of the day I went inside to pack up our stuff.  I was in the house for no more than two minutes when someone ran inside and asked if Ellie was with me.  My heart froze as I told them that no, she was not.  I ran into the backyard, up the walk, and through the open gate to the front of the house.  I looked, but I didn’t see Ellie anywhere.  Calming down, I was turning to go search the backyard when another guest yelled, “There she is!”

Ellie was two blocks away, calmly walking down the middle of the street towards an intersection.

I have not run that fast in my entire life.

I called her name.  I yelled for her to stop, to freeze.  She didn’t even look back at me.  She just kept walking towards the end of the street.

Finally, she turned and looked at me, stopping in the middle of the road.  I tried to get her to come to me, but she didn’t understand, so I ran to her and scooped her up.

I have never been that scared in my life.  The image of her, wandering down the road, is burned into my mind.  I keep imagining what could have happened.  I see a car flying around the corner and tossing her little body into the sky.  I see her broken on the ground.   I imagine what would have happened if I had searched the backyard first, if she had two, three, four more minutes alone. I think about how far she could have gotten, how lost she would have been.  When and where would she have been when she realized that she couldn’t find me?  Would some good samaritan have stopped her, asked her for her name, just to find that she can barely talk?  How long until the police would have shown up to help us search?  What if we never found her?

It doesn’t matter that none of that actually happened, what matters is that it could happen again.  We are constantly watching Ellie when we aren’t home.  But it happened once and it could happen again.  She disappeared from a yard full of adults.  Chev thought she was in the house with me.  I thought she would be safe with all of those eyes on her for a few minutes. No matter how faithfully we practice constant vigilance there is that chance that she could slip away.  And I can’t handle it.

The day after the picnic I started searching the web for tips, tricks, and products to help keep Ellie safe.  From squeaky shoes and child trackers to complicated locks and child leashes, I could probably now hold educational lectures on the topic of child elopement.  We have decided on a new pair of squeaky shoes, since she really liked those when she was younger, and a Tile tracker, which doesn’t have GPS, but I really like the features it does have.

We have also decided that Ellie needs more help than we can give her, so we are applying for a service dog.

If you thought that service dogs were only for the blind or people in wheelchairs, you would be mistaken.  Dogs are now trained for everything from sniffing out peanuts for kids with severe allergies to providing the gentle nudge that a child with OCD needs to break a behavior cycle.  The dogs we are most interested in, however, are those which are trained for kids with Autism.  These dogs are trained to be tethered to their charges and to plant themselves on the ground, unmoving, to prevent them from wandering away.  They are also trained to use their sense of smell to find their kids if they do get lost.  The dogs can be trained to provide comfort and support to children, like Ellie, who cannot self-soothe when they get upset.   If a child is constantly waking up at night and can’t fall back asleep without a parent with them, a service dog can be trained to sleep with them, taking the place of the parent, like a fuzzy security blanket.  Or if a child wakes up at night and wanders (another trait that Ellie has developed), the dog can alert the parents that s/he is out of bed.  They can provide support for kids with balance issues, or who need help navigating stairs and uneven ground.  There are so many things that service dogs can be trained to do!

I am currently in the process of getting referrals filled out by two of Ellie’s therapists, and I’m meeting with her pediatrician on Wednesday to talk about her recent behavior and get the doctor’s paperwork filled out.  Then I’ll be mailing it all to 4 Paws for Ability in Ohio.  We are really excited about this new journey we are hoping to embark on.  (em-bark…see what I did there?)  I promise to keep you, my lovely followers, updated on our progress.

Until then, is it ok if I just never let Ellie out of the house again?

Mission: Denim Directive

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Shopping with preschoolers can be fun.  Shopping for clothing for myself accompanied by the girls, however, is more like a military operation than any kind of enjoyable experience.  It requires speed, agility, intelligence, and bribery.

Step one:  (while still in the car)  “We are here to buy jeans for Mama.  There will be NO touching of the items in the store.  You MUST stay with me.  If you behave, we will go see the puppies at the pet store.”  Firmness and bribery work wonders.

Step two:  Arrive at the store just as they are unlocking the door, so we are the only customers.  I refuse to have my kids ruin anyone else’ shopping experience.  Nobody wants my kids asking them why they want lacey underwear, or voicing their opinion on the color of bra they have picked out.

Step three:  I go directly to the wall of jeans, ignoring any and all other clothing displays.  This is no time to browse.  We are on a mission, people!  No, don’t look at the cute new tops in the center of the store.  Pretend you have blinders, woman, and go for the denim.

Step four:  With one hand holding on to Ellie’s hood, quickly scan the bootleg jeans’ tags for the size I think I am, repeating to Laurel that no, she can’t hide behind the dresses on the rack next to us.

Step five:  Loudly announce that we have to go back to the fitting rooms so I can try on my jeans, thus alerting the store employee and my children that we are moving into Phase Two.

Step six:  “You can use the handicapped room, ma’am.”  Thank you, kind salesperson.  You obviously have children of your own.  Now we have containment.

Step seven:  Encourage the girls to amuse themselves by looking in the three-way mirror while I try on the first pair of jeans.  They are too big.  Crap.

Step eight:  Lock the kids in the fitting room and run back out to the jeans wall in my socks, frantically scan the tags for a smaller size, and run back before Ellie realizes that she can crawl under the door and escape.  Too late.  Ellie is missing.  I hear her giggling from the next fitting room.  Which is locked.  I coax her back out with the promise of puppies later.  Listen to sales lady laugh at me.

Step nine:  Get my old jeans back on, look for my shoes.  Where the hell are my shoes?  Laurel, get back here!  Why are you wearing my shoes?  Where are YOUR shoes?  No, Ellie, get back in here!

Step ten:  Take my new jeans up the counter.  Yell at the girls to GET BACK HERE RIGHT NOW while answering the nice sales lady’s questions.  Yes, I have a charge card.  Yes, I have a coupon.  No, I don’t want you to order another pair for me in the lighter color I really wanted.  I don’t have time for that.  No, I don’t want to spend five more dollars so I can save ten.  Nothing in this store costs only five dollars.  IF YOU TWO DON’T GET BACK HERE RIGHT THIS INSTANT WE ARE GOING STRAIGHT HOME.

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Step eleven:  Push purse up to shoulder and shopping bag onto wrist.  Grab the girls’ hands, and head for the doors.  “Mama, I have to go potty!”  Of course you do.

Step twelve:  Beg sales person to let us use the employee-only bathroom.  Thank them profusely.  Pick up Ellie so she can’t run off while we wait for Laurel to go potty.  Hold her as she struggles and yells “DOWN” over and over.  Ask Laurel if she needs help.  No.  Try to get Ellie to calm down by dancing around and being silly.  Get smacked in the face.  Ask Laurel if she is done yet.  No.  Try swinging Ellie around in circles to amuse her.  “DOWN DOWN DOWN!”  Laurel, you need to be done now!  I need help!  Put Ellie down and try to keep ahold of her hand while propping the bathroom door open with my foot and reaching inside to push the soap dispenser for Laurel.  Lose grip on Ellie.

Step thirteen:  Catch Ellie before she can pull down an entire display of necklaces, grab Laurel’s hand, and head out to the car.  “Mama, what about the puppies?!”

Step fourteen:  Go to pet store and look at puppies.  Remember how much easier life was when we just had dogs.  Wonder if the store would take a trade.

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Danger!

Laurel and I have been talking a lot recently about what to do in scary situations, like if she gets separated from me in various places, and about stranger danger. Now that she is getting older and more independent, she needs to know what to do in emergency situations, and I want her to be prepared so that she doesn’t have to think about her responses, she just does them.  So I’ve come up with some ground rules, and I thought I’d share them with you.  If you have any other suggestions, let me know in the comment section!

What to do if…..

1.  You can’t find me at the mall/store.  Being separated at the mall is probably the most likely scenario that families run into.  The kid gets distracts and wanders away, or they are looking at something and mom turns the corner and keeps shopping, not realizing that junior has stayed behind.  Usually a few loud yells will bring the family together, but not always.   What I have told Laurel to do is sit down on the ground and ask the first mom of little kids that walks past her for help.  Because a kid wandering or even running through the mall won’t get your attention like a four year old sitting down on the floor by themselves.  When she’s older, I’ll tell her to find a store employee, but at the age of four (and a half), she can’t really tell the difference between most grown ups, and since we all know that all adults aren’t created equally, I want her to ask someone safe for help.  The safest demographic is moms of other small children, so that is who I want her to look for.

2.  You can’t find me in the woods. We do a lot of hiking in the summer, and it is entirely possible that at some point Chev and I will be distracted by Ellie or the dog and Laurel will wander off.  Similar to the mall, our plan is for her to sit down on the ground and yell as loud as you can.  Kids have a tendency to keep moving in the same direction when they are lost, sometimes walking for miles looking for their parents.  They don’t know how to double back or really search an area for their families.  The best thing a small child can do is stay in one place and yell until someone finds them.

3.  A stranger asks you to help them.  Stranger danger time!  Laurel knew right away that she shouldn’t go with anybody she doesn’t know, BUT, when I asked her what she would do if someone told her that they lost their puppy and needed help finding it, she automatically said she would help them look for it.  I had to really work with her to get her to understand that she couldn’t help the person right away.  She must come find me so I can help.  That way, we can look for the puppy together.  She didn’t understand that there might not be a puppy, so the best I could do was convince her that if I helped, the puppy would be found more easily.

4.  Someone you know asks you to come with them.  The fact of the matter is that 90% of child abductions are done by people the kids know.  Scary as it may seem, strangers aren’t the real danger.  Your neighbor, bus driver, grocery store clerk, or mailman is much more likely to steal your child than some random lunatic at the toy store.  So it is really important for Laurel to understand that she can’t go anywhere with someone, even she knows them, until she asks for the password.  We picked something that is easy enough for her to remember, but weird enough that no one would guess it.  We are going to have to really go over this one several more times, but she really likes the idea of s secret word, so there is hope.

5.  Someone grabs you and tries to put you in their car (front seat edition).  It isn’t likely, but kids should know what to do if this happens.  Our plan is for her to lock her arms around the steering wheel, thrash, scream, and generally freak out until you can get away.  You can’t abduct anyone if you can’t drive away, and you can’t drive away with a crazy child locked onto your steering wheel.  Yes, an adult would probably be able to pry her off after a few minutes, but in the mean time, she would be drawing a heck of a lot of unwanted attention to them.

6.  Someone grabs you and tries to put you in their car (trunk edition).  Again, drawing attention to herself is key, so we want her to scream, bite, kick, and claw her abductor, and if that doesn’t work, kick out the taillights from the trunk.  Granted, she’s pretty little, but I showed her where the lights were in the trunk of our car, and told her to kick the crap out of them if someone put her in their trunk.

7.  FIRE!  If the fire alarm goes off, the last thing you want your kid to do is hide from it.  Turn that sucker on and let them hear what it sounds like before they ever need to know.  Every family and every house will have a different plan, but since the girls’ bedroom connects to ours, we want them to come to us if the alarms go off at night.  Otherwise, they are to get out of the house any way they can and stand by the car or the back fence.  Either way, they will be far enough from danger, but still clearly visible.  I am also working on teaching Laurel to crawl under smoke and not to open doors that feel hot.  We will work on evacuating from the second floor when they are a bit older, but I think we are set for now.  We have also looked at pictures of firefighters in full uniform, so they aren’t scared of the masks and hoods.

8.  Mama is hurt!  This is a tough one.  After spending four years telling Laurel not to mess with the phone, I am  now trying to teach her to dial 911 if I get hurt.  I’m thinking of getting one of those silver Sharpies to write 911 on each of the phones, just in case.  I’m also making sure that Laurel knows how to completely unlock the front door, including the deadbolt.  I don’t want the EMTs to have to break it down, after all.  She also knows to tell them that Ellie is in the house, in case she is hiding.  I don’t want to wake up in the hospital to find that they only picked up one of my kids!  The only other things I want to teach her is to lock Foster in the laundry room (so he doesn’t eat the paramedics), and to grab my wallet out of my purse.

Thankfully, most of these plans will never have to be used, but if something DOES happen,  I want Laurel to know how to react.  In the case of abduction, the worst thing a child can do is nothing.  If they freeze, they are lost.  On the other hand, if she is separated from me, I WANT her to freeze.  Having a plan and talking about these scenarios with your kids makes them a lot less scary when they happen.  However much we hate to introduce our children to the idea that there are dangers in the world, it is so much worse to consider what could happen if we don’t prepare them.  Keep your kids safe, even when you aren’t around.  Make a plan!